Car StalKing...

So...my life has kind of made a turn around...or a start of a new turn around and chapter of my life. I had a good talkin' to with a very good friend and i decided that i needed to change a little bit. Not go out and dye my hair brown change. As in my attitude and outlook on things and doing things like actually reading my scriptures and pray once in a while. Well, it's not like i've changed dramatically in a matter of a few days, but i've tried to have a better attitude. Last night driving home around midnight, the moon was just so bright and perfect and lit up the mountains wonderfully. To see those majestic mountains glisten in the moonlight was beautiful! I just got an overwhelming feeling of how grateful i was for everything i have. I seriously could go on for posts just listing my blessings...not that i will do that...but i really do have SO much. I had an absolutely hectic day last night at work and i left feeling hApPy and my attitude at work was surprisingly good. Yay for work....ha!

Well, about the whole car stalking thing...i think it is absolutely hilarious that as i walk to my car after my 7:30 class there are people in their cars sitting there staring at you. They watch your every move and as soon as they know where you are parked, they go in for the kill. You can't even sit in your car for more than two seconds because you're already blocking the parking lot because there is a line of people waiting to get your spot. Sheesh people! It's like a race to get to my car and get out of there before the stalkers come. But then again i don't have any room to talk because i have been guilty of the same crime...psych!! I too want that glorious parking slot right next to the building of choice. And do you ever feel awkward when you try to smile at somebody passing by and they just kind of glare at you like how dare you look at me! Ya...people need to be happy...because honestly it just makes it weird for both parties when you don't smile back...ok? ok :)

CrEAmy CenTERs

so....yesterday i was in one of those moods where i was just kinda feelin' sorry fer myself. Plus i was SuPEr stressed about EVERYTHing!!! Work, School...you name it. i just procrastinate till THE very last possible moment. Anyway, i was in the mood for a twinkie so i drove my butt down to the mini-mart only to find that there were none to be found!!! *sigh* so i bough a hostess cupcake instead. i got into my car and thought to myself....WaiT just one dern minute! Did i drag myself out here to buy a hostess cupcake...that would be a NO! SO i charged on to the local grocery store and guess what?!?! They too were out of twinkies. *sniff* i was about to turn away when i saw a box of them. What the heck :) i bought that whole box of twinkies. I successfully downed half the box and half of a hostess cupcake plus some yummy chocolate milk. Yay for me...that was totally my new years resolution...to gain weight. HA! beat that all you peeps who go to the gym everyday. Just don't do it. It's much easier to stuff your face with fattening goodness not to mention that creamy center :) I don't usually stress eat, but treats + chick flick kinda helped things out temporarily. My next endeavor will to eat deep fried twinkies :D

If Music be the food of love, play on...

So...i've decided that 5 days in a row at work is WAY too much for me to handle especially when i work 11 and 16 hour days....BLA!!! How i made it to class this morning i'll never know...one of those small miracles i guess. So...i keep having all these ideas to blog about, but i never remember them because my head is full of crap for school. Anyway i've decided that i'm never getting married. I'm gonna be one of those old ladies that sits on her porch in her little rocking chair with a rifle laying neatly across her lap. I can scare little kids that way. The whole idea of love is so...i don't know the right word...distant? to me. i know i've never felt for someone else as shakespeare put it, "Love comforteth like sunshine after rain." I think i'm stuck in the rain and no where to go. Don't get me wrong, i'm not saying oh poor pitiful me...it's just i see all these people together and married couples and wonder...what is it like? I know the butterfly feeling in your stomach, but i don't think that is real love. Love to me is still able to look at them in the morning with their lovely morning breath and smile and still love them. Not that i would really have any clue as to what love is, but there ya go. I've just been randomly thinking that and thought i'd share.

hiGhHeelS

So, i'm pretty sure that the devil invented high heels. Purely to torture women. I don't doubt this one bit. Here i am sitting in my room one night thinking...hmmm, what could i wear tonight out on the town? Cool funky shirt, check. Cute jacket, check. Jeans, check. Highheels, check...wait what?!!!? WHy in the heck would i want to inflict torture on myself like that? I've decided that beauty is pain. There is such an image out there that women feel they have to live up to because i think that boys have that same image swimming in their heads too. One of my guy friends said he felt sorry for women because of the expectations society has set upon them. Not that i have to always wear what is in fashion. Before going out, i lovingly slip those sassy brown heels on and, bypassing the pain that will most likely ensue, walk out that door ready to face the world. But indeed there is a plus to heels i tell you! It's the fact that they make your butt look good. The fact that for some reason, when i put them on, i feel like a million bucks. Or it's the laugh I get as i walk out the door while my dad is calling me a french whore (he also still calls flip flops thongs and thinks that they are "poolside" shoes). So for now i will take the achy feet and comments! I will endure! haha...So girls next time you put on that favorite pair of heels, don't think twice. Just do it :)

I hate early mornings!!!!

so this morning i had a 7:30 class and i hate getting up in the morning. i would gladly stay in bed till 10 or 11 in the morning, but whatever. So i woke up this morning later than usual and i take foREVer to get ready. by the time i was ready it was about 7:10ish. I walk out to my car and get in and turn the key.....nothing. I turn the key....still....nothingness. Gah! seriously! so i didn't go to class this morning because my stupid car decided not to work. I have to say though that i have the sweetest mom! Here i am moping and she went and made me breakfast. Scrambled eggs and the most delicious pile of bacon i've ever seen. So it's kind of been a bla day, but guess what?!?! I'm going to eat Indian food tonight!!! I am flippin' addicted to that stuff :D So, hey what a great day! ;)

Lovin' the singles ward :D

so i probably should be studying right now but...i'm not. school has just started and i feel like i'm already behind on my classes. anyway there will be enough time to talk about school. Two days ago, being Sunday, i went to my good ol' singles ward. It was fast and testimony meeting and even though i didn't get up and bare my testimony there were many wonderful amazing testimonies given. I have to say i am so very grateful that i'm a part of the weber river ward. Everybody there are such examples and truly good people. I am so very blessed to have such great examples to be around. The great thing is that this ward is just like a family. i can talk to anybody and be friends with just about anybody in the ward. I actually got to go to fhe last night and it was so fun! i enjoyed laughing my butt off with people i enjoy being around and that i know they hold the same standards as i do. Yay for church!!
In other news....i go back to work on Thursday. Totally not excited for that! i've had about a week off and it has been pretty much amazing! I am lucky though that i actually like my job...haha. There are definitely small moments that makes the job very rewarding as a cna. I'm thinkin' i have THE best job ;) (well a nurse would be better, but seeing as i'm going to school for that, that's gonna have to wait.) So ummm...ya, not much to say, just waiting for my computer class...can't wait!! HA!....not.

what!

so...i decided to start a blog...exciting i know. Since everybody and their dog has one i figured huh why not. i'm not the most exciting person in the world, but what the flip i'll try it out. so ya there ya go...well, not too happy that school is starting in a few days. It hardly feels like i had a break! oh well, hopefully i can do better this semester and actually study. Ha! we'll see how that goes. i know that this post may have bored some to actual tears, but in the future i will try to come up with something a bit more interesting to write about.