mR. dARcy

wow...i'm a terrible blogger...i hardly..blog. I don't really ever have anything profound to say or atleast anything somebody would really want to read. I'm assuming anyone is going to read this...haha. So, life is just great. I still work my booty off and pretend i care about school. Ha! I haven't been so gungho on working out an hour every day. I've just been so flippin' tired from work that i just don't do it. Which isn't helping my chances of winning the contest at work....oh well.

Spring break went by and i pretty much worked, but i did spend a lot.....LOT..of money on scrubs and clothes. Which by the way.....nobody, well at least my friends just don't understand the excitement of buying new scrubs. I spent an hour trying on scrubs because i'm super picky about them (that probably is a tad weird and anal on my part) I did buy some new clothes though (what's the point since i work all the time..hardly have time to where normal clothes, haha)

I have to say that i LOVE movies like Pride and Prejudice. In fact, i watched it yesterday and my heart just started pounding when Mr. Darcy (insert heavy sigh) at the very end came to Elizabeth and asked her to marry him....again. I guess i'm a hopeless romantic and Jane Austen's stories have always been a favorite of mine. I just love the way they talked and the way men were true gentleman (not that you can't find a few of those today). I just fall to pieces when i watch those films. Maybe someday i'll find my Mr. Darcy, haha...until then i'll just have to settle for the perfect hollywood version. ;)

life has been going just peachy keen for me. and what a great day because next week is my spring break even though i don't really go to my one class i have on campus anyway...haha. work is just blissful as always. so...at work we have started this "biggest loser" thing and who ever loses the most percentage of their body weight wins. i plan to win.....(insert evil laugh)

so everyday i've been working out an hour in the morning and it feels A-mazing!!! i love the feeling. i feel like i'm doing something good for my body and all i gotta say is it hurts...so...good ;) haha...i am actually going to workout right after this because i have chosen to sit on my duff most the morning doing absolutely nothing. it's one of those things that i hate to have to get up and do, but once i get started i love it.

random story...so i think old couples are absolutely adorable...love 'em. i was taking care of this lady and her husband sat next to her all day. he would pat her head with a cloth and caress her hand and tell her that everything was going to be alright. Looking at those two i almost cried because he was constantly there for her. That's exactly what i want...a marriage that will last and have a man who will always stand by me no matter what. Maybe even one of those old guys who will hold his wife's hand and go grocery shopping with me when we are 80 years old :) that's all....haha...

WhaT a grEAt daY!

So last week was (scuse my french) super shitty. i procrastinated everything and left everything for school till the last minute. I had minimal sleep and thought i had lost my folder with all my papers for my nursing application. Everything was crashing down on me all at once. I seriously thought that i just hit a brick waLL going 90 miles and hour. I had been trying to do everything...the 15 credits...work...life in general by myself. But it doesn't work that way!!! I needed to include Christ in my life. He's just waiting there for me, but i wasn't letting him in. And let me tell ya...it's SO much easier to just let him take over. I was feeling so completely lost and really felt like giving up. Honestly i've NEVER felt this low in my life.

I feel so great today! Today is a new day and it's time for me to change. Both my annoying computer classes are over and i turned in my nursing application today....*woot woot* With that stress gone hopefully i can pay more attention to my more important classes. Sometimes it's the simple things that we tend to forget or look over. Christ has SO much loVe for us that all he wants us to do is come to him. I have needed his help for so long and it feels wonderful to feel his love! This church is really so great and TrUE!!! My heart is so full with gratitude. Heck...even my day started out great with having to wake up for a 7:30 class.

I feel super happy and like i could take on the world....don't worry i'm not gonna get ahead of myself here. Baby steps are what i need...haha. It has been a beautiful day today and I took a couple walks to the post office and such. This weather is amazing! It's 45 degrees, but it feels so warm to me ;) Well off to do some chem homework (bla) and rock on to PAramORe :D

So....as i've probably said in every post i'm SuPEr stressed. I just manage to leave everything till the last minute, including applying to nursing school. Yesterday i was running around trying to get everything done so i can turn it in next week. I really don't understand why i leave absolutely EVerYthinG till the very last second when it stresses me out SO much. But i don't think i'll be changin' any time soon....well, my life is pretty much the same. It really doesn't change...which sounds lame, but true. Valentines Day was dumb. I refrained from doing a whole post on how stupid i think it is. Complete waste of a holiday if you ask me, but who's asking. I just do work and school....work and school....sorry there isn't anything really super interesting to add to my blog. When something slightly interesting comes along then i'll blog again....

mE

So..my last post was a little less than depressing....HA! I was so overwhelmed as was obvious. I'm a little better now. I have finished my four tests, quiz, and one assignment for this weekend. You would think after all that that i could relax, but i think i have another test next week..bLA! it's hard to keep up with everything.

Anyway, today i've been looking at pictures of when i was younger and realizing what an ugly child i was...haha...ok i wasn't that bad, but seriously! I had braces and glasses and my hair..well i didn't do anything with it and my clothing options were less than stellar. hmmm.....well i know that pretty much nobody reads this..but i guess i could say a little about myself. I love to turn my iPod speakers as loud as they will go (family doesn't really appreciate that) in the bathroom while i'm doing my hair. I grab my comb or straightner and hold it up to myself as if it was a mike. All of a sudden i'm singing with Michael BUble in front of a roaring crowd. I even sneak in a few sweet moves. One of my favorite things to eat is brEAdsTicks and hotfudge. Triscuits and cottage cheese is amazing too. Most of the time i am moody. I hate it, but it happens. I'm trying to work on that, to no avail, but i'm tryin! I'm more of the glass is half empty and anybody who knows me knows that i'm sarcastic. Pretty much that's my middle name. Sometimes i'm a little tinsy bit too sArCAstic, but *sniff* i can't help it. If i wasn't saracastic i wouldn't really say a whole lot..HA! isn't that reassuring.

WHat else to say....i love listening to Donny Osmond for anybody who even knows who that is and i also think that the Beatles are THE best band ever to have inhabited this earth. They are SO amazing!!! My mom's a fan and has all of their records. I would sit there by the phonograph and play Beatles album after Beatles album. *sigh* bliss i tell you...I've started a new years resolution to not drink pop. I pretty much drank it 24/7 so i thought it would be a good goal. Usually i don't even bother making resolutions, but i'm actually keeping this one! (so far) Oh man, i'm tellin' ya, last night i wanted a coke really really bad with my enchilada. But i resisted. Booya. hmmmmm.....guess that's all for now. I'm just gonna keep rockin' to some sweet tunes :)

Just call me Princess Mia.

i should probably be studying right now because i have four tests this weekend...BLA! Anyway, today is my first day i've had off in a week. Having class at 7:30 in the morning and then going to work that night is absolutely killing me. I couldn't even manage to sleep in past nine this past weekend. I'm so flippin' stressed with school and work, i'm getting zits on my neck!! Yes, i know to some this may sound quite disgusting, but i'm a cna...nothing disgusts me anymore. Ok, so it was just one zit, but still. And i think i'm getting sick. I NEVER get sick...ever. Sorry i know this post is more of just me bitchin' and complain', but who doesn't once in a while...i mean really.

I kind of feel like Princess Mia off of Princess Diaries. I'm still stuck in that stage where her hair is all frizzy and she has those horrible glasses on and she is invisible to everyone. Just in that awkward stage where she isn't yet a princess. I know this sounds weird and i'm probably quite delirious after so many days at work. Just one moment i feel as though i can do it...i can do the 15 credits and work a ton and still have time to play. Then there are times where i sit here and think, what the flip am i thinking?!?! I can't do this! I'm crazy!! Pretty much i'm married to work and it isn't a happy marriage at that...ha! The other day at work i just felt like crying just because i was SO stressed with everything goin' on right now. I'm sure it could get worse, but hoLy mOly bATman! I'm past the point of no return here. I've gone past the point of being burned out. And if i get sick i'm seriously not gonna be happy. I don't freakin' have time to get sick!!! UGH! maybe i'll feet better next week once all my tests are done.

Car StalKing...

So...my life has kind of made a turn around...or a start of a new turn around and chapter of my life. I had a good talkin' to with a very good friend and i decided that i needed to change a little bit. Not go out and dye my hair brown change. As in my attitude and outlook on things and doing things like actually reading my scriptures and pray once in a while. Well, it's not like i've changed dramatically in a matter of a few days, but i've tried to have a better attitude. Last night driving home around midnight, the moon was just so bright and perfect and lit up the mountains wonderfully. To see those majestic mountains glisten in the moonlight was beautiful! I just got an overwhelming feeling of how grateful i was for everything i have. I seriously could go on for posts just listing my blessings...not that i will do that...but i really do have SO much. I had an absolutely hectic day last night at work and i left feeling hApPy and my attitude at work was surprisingly good. Yay for work....ha!

Well, about the whole car stalking thing...i think it is absolutely hilarious that as i walk to my car after my 7:30 class there are people in their cars sitting there staring at you. They watch your every move and as soon as they know where you are parked, they go in for the kill. You can't even sit in your car for more than two seconds because you're already blocking the parking lot because there is a line of people waiting to get your spot. Sheesh people! It's like a race to get to my car and get out of there before the stalkers come. But then again i don't have any room to talk because i have been guilty of the same crime...psych!! I too want that glorious parking slot right next to the building of choice. And do you ever feel awkward when you try to smile at somebody passing by and they just kind of glare at you like how dare you look at me! Ya...people need to be happy...because honestly it just makes it weird for both parties when you don't smile back...ok? ok :)